Pictures from my senior trip to Belize..

My 18th birthday has come and gone. Birthdays just aren't the same as they used to be, but.. whatever.

I have 9 days of highschool left. Nine days..

So, I know I've said this before, but.. I am really sick of losing friends to boyfriends.. or girlfriends, whatever the situation. It totally kills me. I used to just think it was a part of life and growing up, but my opinion has changed since then. You definitely know something is coming to an end when they don't even bother to call you on your birthday, or eat lunch with you anymore because they are 'just too busy', or even say something to you when they pass you in the halls.. I'm not wanting anyone's sympathy, or apologies or anything like that.. because I'm starting to get to the point where I don't care anymore. And.. that's where I want to be right now, as harsh as that may seem..

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor..

I'm ready to go to Belize. And graduate.

This summer is going to be AMAZING. I can't wait...

Someone please shoot me for saying that my life was simple. I must have jinxed myself or something because my life all of a sudden seemed to get so much harder.

I have a lot of decisions that I have to make soon. Decisions that will affect the rest of my life.. or at least my future anyways. Decisions that I really don't want to make, but have to. Decisions that can't just be 'put to the side' like others. Decisions that need to be made really soon..

Why does everything have to be so hard?

Ok, enough negativity..

I'm working 2 jobs now. Drillers and McAlisters. Drillers hasn't officially started yet so I'm not sure how I'm going to feel later on about working 2 jobs. Hopefully I'll be able to handle it.

This month and next are going to be insanely busy.. Working a TON, Spring retreat, finding a PROM dress, working on my STUPID senior scrapbook, MORE senior pics, my 18th birthday, PROM, BELIZE, and then GRADUATION.

I'm freaking ready for it to be summer..
 

               * Spring Break *

My 18th birthday is exactly one month from today! Mmm.. Me ='s excited.

So I ended up not going to Arkansas with Kaitlin. I would be bummed, but in this case--I'm not. So it's all good. I asked off the whole week from work thinking I'd be gone so now I'm picking up random shifts for people. It's not bad though. I like my work. And the people. They make me smile!

Driller's starts soon. That makes me excited times TWO!

I'm happy with life right now. Everything right now seems so simple. I like it that way.

And... that's about it. Comment if you want!!!

Cheerleading is over. I thought that when cheerleading would be over I would actually have a lot more time on my hands, but oh no, I was terribly mistaken. I can't say that I miss cheerleading  yet. I know I'll probably start to miss it sooner or later, but as for now.. I'm just too busy to think about it really.

I've been working a LOT. More so than usual. I guess my managers KNEW that I was going to have more time on my hands after cheerleading so they just insisted on scheduling me more. Last week, I closed 3 nights in a ROW. And then worked a few other shifts after those nights. On the third night, which was Wednesday, I was there from 5:30 to 11:00. ELEVEN! I'm supposed to be out of there by 10:30, but no. My manager had to call somebody up that night to help us close because we were so behind. Blah... I'm making money though. That's what really matters I suppose.

They will see us waving from such great heights,
"Come down now," they'll say..
But everything looks perfect from far away,
"Come down now," but we'll stay..

Spring break='s 2 weeks from now. I'm not sure what I'm doing yet. Probably either going to Texas or taking a road trip to Arkansas with Kaitlin. 

 "Anyone who says sunshine 
 brings happiness has never 
       danced in the rain." 

Hmm.. The end.